in keeping with the theme of insanity flowing from hardware, this week's insanity should be

old computer hardware

yes, the old i486 CompuAdds wee pulled from university surplus the other day, with the intention of making one into the new ieee parts store server (there will be a link there if the server is ever ethernetted, no thanks to the UKPPD).  i volunteered for the seemingly trivial task of converting this machine to a linux box and setting up the sever.
how foolish of me.
 
 oh, yes, linux runs very well on i486s, in fact much better than dos ever did;  utilizing the 32 bit processor, true multitasking, the whole nine yards....  except that nothing old ever works right.  the case says CompuAdd 33/486, implying a 33MHz processor clock.  yeah, right;  when linux boots, calibrating its delay loop (in BogoMips), it says 16.59BogoMips.  my 200MHz PPro uses a dealy loop of 199.9 BogoMips...  the 133MHz Pentiums in the labs run at 132.something BogoMips.  so the case lies, and this is actually a 16 megahertz processor, or something nasty is causing it to run at half speed....  making each boot take approximately 5 and a half minutes to boot from the installation bootdisks (luckily only a minute from the harddisk).
oh, yes, the installtion bootdisks....  i put my rootdisk on the only bad floppy in the brand new box.  how nice.
then i tried the NFS install....  what?  ethernet card?  oh, yes, this ancient box contained an EthernetExpress 16, which linux detected at booting (but which WinSuck95's so-called Plug'n'Play wouldn't detect earlier to tell us what the hell the thing was), but apparently those mysteriously gouged capacitors on the card were preventing it from working at all.  after borrowing a 3com card, the install went through without a hitch.   no, i lied -- the install filled up the hard drive.  really filled up the hard drive; the thing only had 170MB in it!  (only, sheesh, how spoiled we are these days)  after totally uninstalling the X Window System and related programs, the drive was at merely 70%.  i'm wondering about removing that 16MB swap space....  hey, at least there's 8MB ram, but what good will it do if we've no window system?!?!??!
'tis an ongoing thing....  watch this space, i'll be wrsetling with a webserver and cgi inventory database soon.


Mon Sep 22 19:11:53 EDT 1997
oh yes, here we go again....

more railing against inanimate objects.... why don't machines just bow down before their creators instead of behaving like belligerent teenagers..... (why can't theiur creators learn to type, man this documnet has some of the blurst typoes....(sic)) machines that are dumb just get on my nerves, let me make that completely known. and let me tell you, these old computers are definitely dumb.


however, that comes in only a close second to the real insanity:

women*

some say, "you can't live with 'em, you can't live without 'em."  Norm once said, "you can't live with 'em....  how 'bout another beer?"  after things that have happened to me lately, i'm inclined in one of three directions:
  1. become a monk and never lay an eye on another one of those cruel-hearted non-human monsters
  2. climb a tall building with an ak-47 and pick off women at ramdom
  3. jump off of said tall building
unfortunately i'll have the guts for none of the above, and shall be bitter for the rest of my life.  oh well.  just think of it  ---  i think i'm a pretty nice guy, considerate, affectionate, all that, i listen, igive a damn. i'm beginning to think that women only say they want these things so that men will try to be that way and thus be that much easier for these "women" [women? more like little bratty girls....]to then walk all over them and toy with them to their hearts' (wait, they can't have hearts) content.  i'm serious!   90% of my manuy female friend talk incessantly about how "those boys are such assholes, i wish they were nice,"  but they're all hung up on crappy excuses for men who treat them like shit.  they love the people who are the worst for them.  how ironic and sad.i won't go into the particulars of the reasons behind my disgust right yet (they will likely see this and i'm not yet so pissed off that i don't care), but suffice it to say that i've had a rather nasty track record for the last 13 months....

* don't bother flaming me with all this bullshit of "women are not evil monsters you chauvanistic worm" and all that. you know full well that i'm making a statement of hyperbole in a rush of anziety and frustration. if i really thought that, i wouldn't have any female friends, i wouldn't try to date women, i wouldn't be complaining about it. do us all a favor and point your energy someplace else.

 

 


yet

Mon Sep 22 19:11:53 EDT 1997

well, now seems like a good enough time..... upon review, after a week and a half to cool off, i see that maybe my above comments were a bit hot-headed. not that i necessarily recant in toto, however. i'm very definitely still quite pissed off, though now just in general, not at the particular person in question. that incident was of course very dumb, as much a result of my "dating ineptitude" as anything. still, if i am, as my close friends tell me, such a "great guy," then why are they apparently the only ones who think so? why have i had so many failed attempts that i seriously consider giving up for good?

i so desparately want it... i got a taste of the real thing once upon a time, and i'll never forget the rush till the day i die, never stop yearning to fill that void...........